A few shots from Christmas Eve and Day with our cute little family.
I hope ya had a very Merry Christmas.
A few shots from Christmas Eve and Day with our cute little family.
I hope ya had a very Merry Christmas.
My gorgeous hunk of a man just turned 40!! I just can’t believe he is there and i’m approaching it.. :(( unreal.. I used to think I would never turn 40.. I don’t know why I thought that. It just felt sooo far away, not that I would die or Jesus would come rapture us away, not that I think I’ll make it.. I mean, who knows really.. 🙂 JK calm down. I know where I’m headed, but only if He comes at the right moment.. hehe JK again… “Beulah Land (singing voice) I’m longing for you”.. ok. ok. another post another day.
Anywazzzzzzz, Ryan is turning 40 or tonight as I write this post, he is 40 plus 9 days. Eventful Night…… You can say he ended the night the same way he came into the world.. Well……..Wait….. that sounds like I’m saying that sweet 10 pounds, 4oz and 24 1/2″ long toddler Ryan came hurling out of his mothers vajayjay that night. No, clearly that did not happen… OUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
The day started with Ryan waking up to 40 balloons with random sweet pics of him through his life tied to them. He was surprised and it was really sweet to see him reflect on some of them.
So, now its evening time and I have invited 50+ people including family and close friends. Because of the amount of people and kids that would be there and I already met my quota for hosting parties at my house for this fiscal year, I decided LETS GO SKATING!!!! That’ll be fun, right? Well, it was for the first 45 minutes. So much fun!. Skylar was in Heaven,, she’s 2 people and she was pretty much running on the skates and would not come off the floor for anything, even CAKE!!!!! You know she was having a good time if she passed up food.. 🙂
40 years ago, God brought this little boy into the world. Well, not really little, he was over 10 pounds and almost 24″ long, pretty much a 3 month old right out of the womb.
The holidays have come and gone. boooooooooohoooooo:( Now, its cold, foggy and rainy for no reason at all and its depressing!!!!!!! Its just fun during months of November and December. Anybody else feel that way?
We had a fun few months with friends and family. Skylar, especially was fun this year with all the Christmas events.. She told me hourly how pretty the Christmas tree was and that the lights are hot. We sang Happy Birthday Jesus and Silent Night about 39 times before bedtime. Actually, we do that everynight. Not kidding. Skylar has always loved those 2 specific songs. Also, we watched How the Grinch Stole Christmas about 4 times a day. That was definitely the movie of this Christmas for us. Ryan made us his special
crack, I mean Nutella cookies pretty much every few nights. And I’m not even mad about it. We had several impromptu dance parties on the table to Mariah Carey’s, “All I want for Christmas is you”. One of our favorite traditions is letting the kids open a wrapped book every night starting Dec. 1st. and reading together as a family I would be lying if i said we didn’t miss night. oops.. . Overall, it was a relaxing Christmas vacation and many memories were made with my sweet little family.
Our elves, Colby and Chloe decided to come back, but they had ebola and weren’t their usual selves:(
Micah and I also did our annual goody bags to hand out to the homeless. It gets more and more special each year as she gets older and understands it. God is using her to bless others and she thinks thats pretty cool.
My sweet family in Old Town enjoying the lights and the 17 fake snow flurries that they blew down. Thx SacTown, you shouldn’t have. (I miss home and real winter)
Micah started a new school this past fall and we are so in love with all the staff and the kids. It really does feel like another family. She got to perform in her first Christmas Production and she was over the moon. That girl rehearsed the heck out of her songs and even had the courage to try out to sign with the senior sign team for a song. Its a huge deal at our school, something they do with excellence. She didn’t make it and their were tears, from both of us. I actually went into the bathroom and curled up in a ball and bawled. I mean, like literally lost my self for a few minutes. It was not easy to see your little girl experience her first real disappointment and hear her say “I wasn’t good enough”.. ohhhh lawd.. gonna stop right now or starbucks gonna have to intervene over here in the corner. Anyway, lesson learned and she’ll be trying out again next opportunity. She’s such a trooper.
Remember those impromptu dance parties I mentioned above?? Oh yeeeeeah, got some of them on video.. This 1st video is absolutely my favorite cause it has my niece in it. She’s not shy, but she is little more reserved than my Micah and tried for several hours to find my phone and delete this video. Someday, she will thank me for posting it:) And Whitney!!!! Need I say more?!?!?!? She just makes me come alive. Just gotta dance!!! But seriously, she’s my all time favorite. Makes me sad that she is no longer here;(. Again, tears. For the love, Jada! ok.. Pulling it together.
And then it was Christmas Zumba time!!!!!!!!!!
My husband and I are always looking for opportunities to give. God has blessed us over and above and its such a honor to just pass it on to others. A few months ago, God placed a family on my heart as I was praying that God would show me a family that we could love on and shower with gifts… Who doesn’t like receiving presents? I’m not gonna lie, I’m a huge fan of gifts!! Its my love language, just FYI. We did some fb stalking to figure out likes and stuff about them, etc. it’s a family we don’t even know well, but had met a few times. It’s been fun and a blessing to love on them like this and sure will bring some extra smiles.. Micah said as we were running the gifts from the car to their porch trying to be quiet, but both of us was so giddy that we should do this every year!! And a new tradition has now been born!!!!
Even though this post is after Christmas, I hope your Christmas was full of love. “Christmas is a togethery sort of holiday,” said Pooh. “That’s my favorite kind,” said Piglet. I couldn’t agree more.
Another post witten several weeks after the actual event.. I’ve fallen so behind and trying to play catch up. I’ve sent the kids upstairs with daddy to play with blocks and give me some silence. And of course they are up there playing zoo or WWI. I have no idea, but I’m staying here on my tush. where it is safe:) and peaceful.
OK. People. If you know us personally and get our Christmas Card every year, you know its a big deal. If it were entirely up to me, I would stick a cute pic of just the girls with some cute graphics. BAM. Done. But my hubs is a super out of the box thinker, creative photographer. And I think he feels like everybody is expecting this amazing mouth drop pic every year and it has to be better than last year. Somebody needs
therapy, prayer:) Honestly, when christmas card pic talk starts, I get anxiety poos. I know. I’m sorry 🙁 But Ryan spoils blesses (i have a sweet friend who started saying blessed instead of spoiled and i like it so I’m doing it too,Thanks Sonia!!!!) me year round and pretty much lets me have control of everything. So the card is his baby and we just do what we are told.:)
And 2015 card barely made it in time. We got it back the first time and the color was off, we looked green. Anxiety is high at this point. Its Dec. 16 and we have to re-order them, address them and get them sent out. People are texting and asking on fb where our christmas cards are….They are stressing, I’m stressing.. Help us LAWD. We can’t let our friends and family down. I was messing around with my time lapse app in preparing for the shoot. Heres a little look:)
Wasn’t that sweet?? I love the video of the girls dancing!!! Micah and her dancing cracks me up.. She truly does not care if its done right.. That girl loves to bust a move and I absolutely love it and her:) and Skylar.. so yummmmmmmy.. So here is the final product.
Ta-daaaaaaaah!:) Its pretty simple and calm compared to previous years, but we love it.. I absolutely love the girls in this pic. And of course the hubs is a hottie. I changed about 37 times and hair was like 5 days dirty and begged Ryan to photoshop my thighs in half. HA but its okay. I love the pic still.:) We already know whats gonna happen with 2016 Christmas Card and its gonna be prettttttty amazing…
Merry Christmas Family and Friends,
Its true. I got me some teeth jewelry. This post is 2 months after getting my braces on. That day I would have said I was ready, this is gonna be a breeze, I don’t mind taking 53 minutes every.single.night to floss each.and.every.tooth, brushing my teeth after every bite of food that enters my mouth which means going to the bathroom to brush about 49 times a day. I had done my research and was ready. After all, it is the beginning of the improved me transformation before I turn 40.. I got 2 years to get it together!!! yiiiiiiiiikes!
Here is me pre-braces with my cute husband:)
My teeth were not that bad. Just enough of a few crooked teeth that it was all I could see in every picture annnnd my husband is a photographer/filmmaker. You feeling me??????? So, I had to do this plus my teeth alignment is all jacked up, I have completely tore them up with all the grinding I apparently do at night and my back teeth are growing inward which would keep getting worse with age. I’ve always wanted braces, but always came up with excuses.
Now, here I am, 38 years young and I blend in with all the other 10 year olds with some teeth metal. Ladies, if your young and you need braces, just pull up your big girl panties and get it over with already.. For the love, please.
Showed up to my ortho office which I love. Bunch of women, they are totally chill and fun, complimenting me on my hair color, my boots. We were instant besties. I laid there with that scary white plastic thing in my mouth for a HOUR trying to not lose my lunch and embarrass myself. Didn’t hurt at all and went quicker than I thought.. Its funny, they were all chatting about Gwen Stefani and Blake Shelton getting together (which I still find so odd) and they are asking me questions as if I can answer….??!?!?!?!?
My husband and oldest daughter went with me also. Why??? Because. 1. In case I passed out or away, I wanted them to be there for my last moments. For real, you never know what could happen. Remember, i’m a lifetime story. 2. My oldest is going to get her braces in the next year and I wanted her to see the process. She was so sweet, kept asking me if I’m okay and telling me to take deep breaths. I think she was pretending she was coaching me for labor:)) God love..
Bless my heart.
Here I am!!!!! YA… I can’t even explain the feeling of your mouth being jammed pack with metal!!!! I wanted to rip them out immediately!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There was no pain or pressure that first day, but ohhhhh the feeling was so annoying. My upper lip wasn’t small to begin with. Thanks to my sperm donor out there somewhere for the full lips. For real, you deserve a sticker! I did get good lips. Anywayzzzzzzz, they got even bigger once the metal went on and my upper lip kept getting stuck on the braces.
This picture above, seriously that upper lip didn’t move for weeks.. I kept pulling it down myself. I was freaking out.. I was constantly in a state of looking awkward and apparently, surprised.. I can’t laugh right.. Its really hard to laugh aggressively like I do, but keep your mouth closed.. Like, try it.. right now…. seriously, its hard.. but I do and I look cray. My husband makes so much fun of me. Just so insecure of my metal mouth. I need to just get over it already!!!!!
I complained to everybody that first 3-4 weeks who talked to me about anything.. They wanted to talk about our children, school, refugees, isis, church and I was like “but for real, I can’t even stand these braces.” I can’t even eat anything. I’m starving!!!!!!!!!!! Soup and smoothies!! Have you ever saw somebody with braces after they slurped a berry smoothie????????????????????? plain nasty. I apologize.
And today. 2 months of braces down. 1 year and 4 months left.
Notice a pattern in my pics. I can’t smile for real. I just can’t. If I even see a pic of me with my braces, ohhhh father. I can’t even think about it. It’ll be the year known as “the year nobody saw jadas teeth” and then I’ll do a big reveal!!!!
I go in for my 1st tightening in a few weeks, I know.. scared for my life. The thought has crossed my my mind to just ask the ortho if she can just take them off.. i’m fine with my crooked teeth….. I mean, really I just want some taffy. watermelon taffy. or cinnamon taffy.. Omg, i’m drooling. My husband so kindly as he chomps on some popcorn, taffy and steak reminds me that children 30 years younger than me do this all the time and they make it through. Maybe, by the end of the year, I will join the ones who made it though. I can do this.. I got this.
Yes, its true friends. We will become a family of 5 hopefully in the next year or 3.:) No, I’m not pregnant. (Please don’t say, “Oh your taking the easy road, huh”, “pregnancy too much for you?” or other crazy nonsense stuff. You could accidentally get punched in the throat. 1. Adoption is so not the easy road. I’m allowed to say that now since I’ve adopted and given birth.:) and 2. Yes, pregnancy was hard at the age of 37, gestational diabetes and 63 pounds. (you’ve seen my youngest, right). My uterus now hates me and I am trying to restore that relationship.
The truth is we have to. Its in our hearts and we can’t stop thinking about him. In 2012, we had started the adoption process and were just waiting for the call that we had been “matched”. But one night, something told me to pee on a stick and OH MY WORD, i saw 2 lines. 2 sticks at home and then 4 more in the walgreens bathroom. WHAT?!?!?!?! 14 loooooooooooooooooong years of screaming at my eggs and hubbys swimmers to frekin get together!!!! 🙂 Long story short,, Once we reached the end of the 1st trimester, our adoption agency had to put our adoption on hold. and we went on to have a super healthy baby toddler, Skylar. hehe.
Now, we are finishing what we started back then. Of course we don’t know him yet, but we love him in our bones and our hearts. We are obsessed with everything boy right now. Jen Hatmaker, my favorite person that I don’t know in the universe said “You realize that when God said He sets the lonely in families, He meant it, and He doesn’t just transform the “lonely” but also the “families.” He changes us for one another. God can create a family across countries, beyond genetics, through impossible circumstances, and past reason.” A to the MEN!!!!!
We are in beginning stages, still working on application. Its been sitting in our kitchen for 6 months now. This has the potential to be the longest adoption ever. JK:) Its my goal to have paperwork done before Christmas. We have our intake interview next week and then start adoption/parenting classes the beginning of the year. Which we have already done, but have to re-do since time has passed. Help us Lawwwwwd. These classes can be brutal. In the meantime, we are doing paperwork, home study, getting physicals, fingerprints and convincing Micah that we are only adopting 1 and not 19. ??????? Bless her Lord, she wants so many kids. Makes my throat close up to think of it. I mean, in a good way.. Not that I don’t love kids, but… well … . never mind 🙂
Seriously, we would love your prayers over our family and especially over our sweet boy (YES, ITS A BOY) insert blue heart here. Please pray over him for protection over his heart, mind and body. Pray over the birth family, especially the birth mom. Pray that God would place people around her to love on her and build her up as she faces difficult circumstances. God sees her and loves her no matter what. My prayer for her.
A “Gotcha Day” is the day that we celebrate when our daughters adoption became finalized. Micah is our oldest who God blessed us with through the beautiful gift of adoption. I feel absolutely like the luckiest woman in the world to have been chosen to be her Mommy. She is my world. She is my heart. She is my Micah. xox